How do I know if I've grown? (by Laura Grace)
Yes this is a very good question is it not? It is!
One I was "afraid to ask" and didn't for a very long
time either! Listen I have to be honest with you
because deep down I knew this was needed but I
kept thinking "I don't have time" so every now and
then I would say "send me miracle Grow" Father!
Supernatural stuff to me was like "miracle grow!"
I can look back now and see how I was scrambling
to know and to grow after I became born again! I
wanted to know everything! I studied everything I
could get my hands on about healing about how to
have faith and how to have fruit and how to witness
and how to be "all I can be" in the Lord! I went through
This seminar twice on "finding your purpose" and took
spiritual gift tests, sat in bible studies and sermons
and talked to Christians all the time! to me planning
a vacation or even buying a house or shopping was
"WORLDLY" because I was raised Lutheran but I was
In a Pentecostal type church for a long time (soaking in
all they said like a sponge!!!). GROWN to me meant
1 Corn 13 all my childish things are put away because I
now LOVE everyone! Isn't that what perfect means? All
the other stuff is nothing (prophecy all that) and now the
perfect has come and I love EVERYONE like God does!
How I discovered I wasn't grown was hard questions used
to upset me! (a lot) that was one way I knew. :)
I think some of my best stories would have to be told in
person! And what I have experienced in the Lord could
not fit in 10 books if I wrote it all down! (and I am still
growing) but this idea that I have to love everyone except
me well, that had to go first! Why? Because how can I be
all God wants if I don't love myself enough to LET myself
have time to grow (first off!) and how can I grow if I am
not drinking in living water every day not just on Sunday?
and what if I just pretended to understand what all these
scriptures mean instead of really finding out for myself what
they mean? And what If I don't apply it because I am too
busy rushing to the next thing I want to learn?
And what if I say I can see and hide the fact I am blind to
some stuff? OH this journey I have been on involved every
single day of submitting it all to Jesus let me tell you but
yes to Grow? To grow you have to GO and follow JESUS
and it takes guts too (I found that out!). He WILL and can
take you on a Journey and it may not be what you think!
How do I know I'm growing? There is so much to this! How
about we start with REALLY being yoked to Jesus first and
what if we took what he said Literally like: "BREAD" His word is
bread (FOOD) and what if we began to see and believe we can
have this really truly LIVING RELATIONSHIP With God and we
CAN (CAN) KNOW HIM! .........(for ourselves!) ..........
Who cut in on you and said you can't? What are the obstacles
that seem to stand in your way? Admitting we are not as grown
as we thought is the first step (and the hardest one of all I might
add) because Knowing God is not the same as knowing about him!
And yes I do say some radical stuff! but I have lived it! and I am
not afraid to talk about it! and yes sometimes what I say will make
someone mad! (who does she think she is anyway?) but I know
God is with me on this. HOW I KNOW Is because I am CONFIDENT
in my heart because the HOLY SPIRIT has convinced me of truth
after truth after truth! And the biggest testimony of all is KNOWING
Who you are in him and THAT yes you do KNOW him (and he knows
you!) and that you are so full of God you can explain things from the
revelation of your own heart from God to you and the word is alive
to you it's water it's bread! and when you study God shows you more
and more and more because now you know YES THIS IS SUPPOSED
TO HAPPEN! I AM supposed to be another TREE of his growing by the
living water with fruit and leaves and branches and yes I am a minister
of his because minister means servant! And am so full of the Love
Of God I am not afraid of what is coming and I can truly rest in him now
because "God and I" have faced everything there is to know "together'
and what we have not faced yet we will! (Together) ........
I have to stop this is getting long! CONFIDENCE in your Daddy God
even more so than your earthly parents because you KNOW ......
Growing........the revelations are branching out from God to you and it's
getting bigger and bigger! and you love to hear other's testimonies of
God and what he is saying to them because YOU KNOW your heavenly
Father and "dad is with you" while you shop, cook, work, drive, pray, and
I have no doubt many are grown already but I believe God wants to make
growing More exciting (AND FUN) .........and this is part of going back to
our first love by the way Having fun WITH HIM while also learning of him
in Our everyday lives! And let's not stagnate either! and let's all get involved!
When a child is grown they can go do all the stuff mom and dad can do........
Right? ...........so it's not just about loving everyone we are re-born and become
as a baby, then a child and while we don't want to lose our child like faith we
do need to grow UP In Jesus (Ephesians 4) and those who "won't" don't! it's not
automatic either! If that were true we would not see the scary things we see so yes
we really do have to take Dad's hand (the Father) and by his Spirit we learn!
and if you don't believe that read John 14, 15, 16 and circle every place you see
the word Spirit!
I have said enough for today! (there is really so
much to this!!).......with love and prayers! soaking in Living water today!
Laura Grace author, Grace to Grow